Typical DayStaring at the window or at the wallNot knowing what I’m becoming, just waiting to fallSilence for hours talking in my mindThe fear of the answers I might just findLaying here still not moving a bitSeeing myself screaming, trashing not flinching a bitMy soul has wavered not sure if I am meBut rage and anger all I see inside of meDestruction of all I have including meI even question the reason why I should beCrazy, screaming wanting to die so badBut the fear of death now that I never have hadMakes me protect what I have to live for and what is leftEven though I just want to give in to that’s all I have leftTake me no
I am not youWhen you look at me, what do you see?My long dark hair or my deep brown eyesCan you really tell it's me? Between the bleach and their lies,Am I real or what you want me to beHow do you know what you really see is me?Never knowing just clicking on a fav or a likeThe war I go through just to see your spike,The spike that gets me noticed to you and beyondThe artists that love me and so on so onI'm fond of pleasing this will not last See I have this time but not forgetting the past.You weren't there when i needed you, you have no clue,If I am meant to me or mirroring you But I don't care for the people that let me slideJust sittin
No more being bulliedDon’t you get it, this is your warI have no beef with you I’m not counting the scoreI just want to be me without playing this fightBut you can’t let it rest you have to be rightI just want to live without this time consuming gameBut you turn this to shit again and againCan’t you leave me be to live my own lifeWithout being a asshole and giving me strifeI have no quarrel with you or your group Please take me out of this self-played loopFor fuck can’t you leave me to grow on my own?Disown me then try to make me your ownTo many games you play to make yourself realHow many hearts and mind will you steel?