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Typical DayStaring at the window or at the wall
Not knowing what I’m becoming, just waiting to fall
Silence for hours talking in my mind
The fear of the answers I might just find
Laying here still not  moving a bit
Seeing myself screaming, trashing not flinching a bit
My soul has wavered not sure if I am me
But rage and anger all I see inside of me
Destruction of all I have including me
I even question the reason why I should be
Crazy, screaming wanting to die so bad
But the fear of death now that I never have had
Makes me protect what I have to live for and what is left
Even though I just want to give in to that’s all I have left
Take me no
I am not youWhen you look at me, what do you see?
My long dark hair or my deep brown eyes
Can you really tell it's me?
Between the bleach and their lies,
Am I real or what you want me to be
How do you know what you really see is me?
Never knowing just clicking on a fav or a like
The war I go through just to see your spike,
The spike that gets me noticed to you and beyond
The artists that love me and so on so on
I'm fond of pleasing this will not last  
See I have this time but not forgetting the past.
You weren't there when i needed you, you have no clue,
If I am meant to me or mirroring you
But I don't care for the people that let me slide
Just sittin
No more being bulliedDon’t you get it, this is your war
I have no beef with you I’m not counting the score
I just want to be me without playing this fight
But you can’t let it rest you have to be right
I just want to live without this time consuming game
But you turn this to shit again and again
Can’t you leave me be to live my own life
Without being a asshole and giving me strife
I have no quarrel with you or your group
Please take me out of this self-played loop
For fuck can’t you leave me to grow on my own?
Disown me then try to make me your own
To many games you play to make yourself real
How many hearts and mind will you steel?

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*MeFlyingFree May 3, 2012  Professional Artisan Crafter
:wow: This is awesome! Very nicely done!!! :rose:
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=Melanie-J-Howle May 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :D
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*MeFlyingFree May 4, 2012  Professional Artisan Crafter
You're welcome:D
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~Shadowhunter625 Feb 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
wow! awesome!!
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=Melanie-J-Howle Feb 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
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~runningonsentences Jan 27, 2012
Ozzy?
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=Melanie-J-Howle Jan 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
no lol
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=ramseyst Jan 5, 2012  Professional Photographer
.........................................:iconchickendanceplz:........................................:iconchickendanceplz:......
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Mood: Love *chryssalis Dec 29, 2011
Wow!!Very creepy!!:clap:
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=Melanie-J-Howle Dec 29, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
That was the idea :D
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